| Religion. Religion. It means "to get together". I hear the word religion and I imagine a group of Christians condeming non Christians and sending them to hell. A little horrific yes but that's what I see. I see Muslims hating Christians or vice versa. I see hate. I don't see the universal preaching of practically all religion which happens to be about: LOVE. Strange how people never look at the bigger picture and realize that all these figures that we preach so highly about and try to spread their word speak so often about love. But look at the destruction in our world. Where is the love as the BlackEyedPeas would sing to us. We all have gotten so damn bitter. We have all gotten so damn far up our own asses. So damn sure that we have ignored the love. We have ignored the fact that in the end of the day we are all Humans. No matter what beliefs we have the person next to you was built the same damn way granted they might have a different complexion and their size might defer greatly from you but we all know compassion, hate, love, jealousy etc. We all feel the emotions. When are we going to have a religion? A religion of getting together as one. As humans. Civilized humans infact. When we stop pointing fingers and just breath? Breath the same damn air as everybody else...... I took a course back in high school at a community college which was about world religions. Oh God! It was like an orgasm in my mind to have learned so much. Ironically I didn't pass because I got lazy and never cared about the esssay. To tell the truth. I was intimidated of writing an essay. I am always intimidated by essays. I feel that they are too structured and that my mind cannot cope with so much structure in writing. I call myself a free writer and I love to just type what is on my mind. So that class opened me a bit about religion and I thought it was awesome. I got so damn interested in Taoism that I even considered of converting to it. I didn't like being a Catholic. I felt that it was too ritualistic. So fake. One of those religions where you just....read. Nothing wrong with it. But I have been in that church for more than 10 years. It's all the same shit! Maybe it's the people who organize it that operates in a shitty manner or spreading the word. Whatever the case maybe I just despise going to church. It's funny how one organization runs theirs completely and utterly different from another organization but as we step back we realize that both organization have the same intentions. People just want their own shit. Something to call their own. They want someone to praise them for creating something that was never done before or suppose to be done in a different way or some shit. So I guess then that the purpose of having an organization is to just recieve some kind of praise from the world? I understand that other people want to help people differently because I feel the same way. I want to help the world. I want to make this a better place not just for my children, not just for me but for the rest of the people who will inhabit this world. I know that people feel that their approach is better than anothers approach. Sadly enough I feel that unity will not happen unless something extremely catastrophic happens to this world where prejudice, hate, ignorance etc is thrown away. It is sad to say that it is hard for me to free myself from this world. I am trying to find my own freedom. I cannot depend on anybody elses freedom or anything. I don't want to continue anymore. I'm sleepy. Goodnight. Err. Morning. |
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| I feel no remorse for what I did. For what I have said. I liked what I did. I know what I did. So I did what I thought I had to do. Life is a hot bowl of steaming shit. I hate it but I see it. I know it's there. I know what it is. So how in the world do you cope with a hot bowl of steaming shit? Because I sure as hell don't know. Do you know? Am I suppose to know? Am I even suppose to fucking care?! |
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| I have decided to move once again to another screenname as well as to another page. I feel awful. I feel that I might be betraying myself |
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